I want to start writing

Let's be Honest & Stay Moody
3 min readFeb 24, 2022

While bingeing on studyquill’s (youtube) study and productivity videos, Jasmine suggested that one of the 100 things you can do instead of scrolling on your phone is writing. It can be about anything.

So here I am…

Although I’ve always wanted to attempt writing as a part of journaling or trying to create a habit/ routine out of it- I’m failed at it big time! It’s almost like how I start every year with a new year resolution of reading at-least one book a week. And I do start strong with reading 3 books in 2 weeks for month or two and then it suddenly goes crashing down. No specific reasons involved. Now I do know that habit tracking is difficult for most people and I am not a rare case here, but as I’ll be talking about my personal experience I must say it’s very difficult for me! Not just writing but any habit/ hobby tracking.

As a kid, I’ve learned Bharatnatyam for few years, but I was really smol to even remember how helpful it was. The same teacher recommended my parents I take signing classes, so I did Karantic music for 3 years- quit because it was immediately after school hours and I was mostly sleepy, although I love music. There was also technical drawing, henna, quilling, karate, skating, swimming, yoga, zumba and the list goes on. Similarly there’s also a big fact list for how many times and types of clean eating techniques, waking up and snooze routine, let’s drink this for clear skin, doodle everyday for positive thoughts, cut down sugar for a month, can I attempt to be vegan? Will it ever be possible to stop having eggs in my diet? Let’s not listen to music for a while. Track my screen time…

If I’m being honest, I did like all of it, in fact loved it! But I usually ended up getting good at it super fast and lose interest to continue or just lose motivation. Writing specifically has had a big on and off and spoof haven’t written a word in a really long type kinda impact. Also not to forget I have major issues with spellings I can see them, but I constantly get confused and suddenly don’t remember which alphabets comes after what- to form that word (haven’t tested for dyslexia) And I’ve already thought a sentence ahead, while I write this one, I constantly keep eating words as I quite- this I’ve heard to be a common issue. So I’m usually hyper conscious as I write or type my thoughts on any topic, thinking how many times will I have to re read it before I finally make use of that text/ content. My IELTS results actually said a lot about this as well, I scored a 9 in speaking v/s 6 in writing – never finished my last essay, as I was busy re-reading the first one. This result made me think about my brain to an extent when where I spoke to my mum about it, she laughed and nostalgically took me back to my pre school and high school days, where I never finished exams on last day, hardly cheat, rather left what didn’t need immediate attention, even though I knew the answers to pretty much all the questions. I send deep eye-rolls to myself, while my mom laughs.

Also yes, I do realise at this point that I have ended up indirectly sharing a lot about myself. But this is me! taking my baby-steps at writing/ journaling/ trying to form a habit.

** keeping my fingers crossed, let’s see how this goes.

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Let's be Honest & Stay Moody

Types things with or without correct - right or no grammar. Finds art & history fascinating. Loves food, music & swimming. Wants to read more and sleep more.